“He will realize the huge mistake he made when he let you go, when he decided to choose her over you. When he decided he just did not love you the same. Trust me, he will be sorry. And don’t you sit there thinking he won’t be sorry, I know you are. But I guarantee you now, he will be sorry. So don’t go on spending your nights waiting for that one phone call you know you’re never gonna get. Or that IM you know he will never send you simply because he likes to ignore you. he likes to pretend he doesn’t see you online, he does it out of spite just because he knows its killing you. When he walks past you in the hallways he’s gonna look past you, but you need to know he will do that ‘cause he knows somewhere inside you, it will hurt. And I ain’t gonna lie to you. It will hurt. It will hurt a lot. But it’ll hurt even more when you see her name and how much he loves her in his profile. It’s all gonna hurt. Knowing you’re not the girl that’s making him smile. Knowing you’re not the first person he thinks of when he wakes up and the last before he goes to sleep. Knowing you’re not the face on his background of his prone anymore. Knowing is he hasn’t already, he will delete the album of pictures of you he has on his phone. Knowing you won’t be spending every single moment possible with him. Knowing there’s not gonna be no more late night phone calls arguing about who loves who the most. And you know what, today, tomorrow, next week, months from now; your phone will go off with a text message, you will instantly grab your phone hoping its him saying he wants to give our relationship another shot. Bu trust me; he’s got too much pride. Even if he wanted to be back with you, he wouldn’t tell you. You’re soon gonna realize he doesn’t care about you anymore and he won’t be the first person you call when you’re upset. He won’t be the one to put that smile back on your face. And yeah, its gonna hurt; its gonna hurt a lot. But you know what you’re gonna do? You’re gonna hold your head up. You’re gonna show him you’re better than him and you don’t need him in your life. you’re gonna prove to him that he made the biggest mistake of his life letting you got hat you never really needed him anyways.”
Louisa gave me this, and I think it's so sweet :) Eyes filled with tears, I was in class begging him to give me another chance. He kept saying that we are not suitable and stuff, being pressured. Actually, all I could feel was that there isn't any love anymore. I was quite sad at first. I wanted to just let cry but nope my ego forbid me again. So I was online, talking to Alex, Adrian. It felt so good somehow. I didn't even think about him and then I came home. Then I realised, OMG I'm so over him. That's fast right. (Break record leh. Fastest get over period.)But who cares, I'm out of this mess man! YAY YAY YAY :D Hadn't been myself for the past 2 days. Kept so quiet in class and no vulgarities. That is so not me man, hmpf!
Now I can just concentrate with my little lovely pool. Baby I'm back ^^ Going to train my 8 ball and get ready for this Saturday's RP Open. I can't lose in the first game right. It will be really embarrassing right. So I'm going to be train damn hard tomorrow and Friday then I'll be prepared on Sunday :) Right now, I'm going to study.